between the binaries...

What the fuck man! Why do I've to get up and go the fucking bathroom every single morning? Chalo chodo yaar… Jo karna hai, so toh karna hai… - I spoke to myself and forced myself out of the bed. I managed to walk to the bathroom like a freakin' zombie, while digging stuff out of my eye. I reached the bathroom door, stood there by the wall and kisi tarah apne aap ko sambhal ke khada hua… After all, raat bhar peeney ke baad hangover toh rahega hi… Sar dard ke saath dolte dolte darwaaze ka knob khola and I entered the loo. Inside the loo, I switched on the light, stood in front of the mirror and looked at my ugly face. I took out my toothbrush and applied some paste on it… Brush karte-karte, I wanted to pee, so I walked towards the WC. Just as I was peeing, my toothbrush fell in to it. "Fuck man!" ,I screamed to myself… When things have to go wrong, they go wrong (Murphy's law!) I was so fuckin' inebriated, that just put my hand in to the loo to retri...

Dec 25th, 2015 – 12.00 am Lights fade off in my tiny room. It blacks out and is filled with a thick cloud of smoke emerging out of my cigarette. As I enjoy the sight of white cloud of cigarette smoke in the dark and black room, I sink in to the arms of the darkness and black night that I have lived my entire life in. I know that my life is now just equivalent of the cigarette bud that I have in my hand. With the crushing of that last fag, my life will enter the darkest enclosures that mankind has ever come across – DEATH! With my feet already in the doors of Hell, I decided to relive the moments of my fucked up life. And as destiny would have it, I was accompanied by a cigarette, darkness and the classic – “Comfortably Numb” to take me all the way through. Flash back to September, 1982 Taking birth in a middle-class Hindu family was never a matter of choice. At the time of my birth, even my folks wouldn’t have had the slightest of idea, that th...